I have a big problem?

i was doing my AAt studies suddenly my mother got paralys so i had to stop my studies coz i had to lookafter her then my father was down with a cancer still i couldnt continue my studies.i lost my both parents 7months ago but my boy friend is with me for nealy 5years he was with me in all these stagers i have i met him when i was working in the bank i have done some wrong things wich he told me not to do we have been angry then i go behind me and some how get friendly coz now i have a hope only on him.today i desited to continue my studies coz now im not doing a job and also i tryed to go to uk and it didnt work.hes telling me dont go for cles how can i do the exam with out cles coz i have stoped my studies for 4years the silabus have totaly changed hes telling me not to keep hopes on him if am going for cles he thinks i will cheet him if i go out of the house tell me what to do coz the cles are starting tomorrow what do you think have i to stay at home or go for cles?